tranced welcome to 2009

I have welc0med this year not just with open arms, but an open heart, to love deeper, smile wider, to laugh more, play harder, work smart, and just LIVE!!

 I’m going to be ambitious and do most (if not ALL) the things I wrote down on my Someday, Maybe list. 

First, I want to learn how to spin.  I don’t want being a DJ or DJing to just be a frustration. I hope to land gigs in clubs and bars. Or both.  I’ll still keep my day job.  Just need to pacify the itch of being a party-phile a few nights a week by decking out great music and prevent any more ears from bleeding when they listen to hippity hop. *no offense meant to those who’re fans of this type of music*

I also want to learn how to pole dance. That would be fun, not to mention the umph it would do for my sex life. 

I’m planning to go back to the gym as well.  Want to tone up, work on the abs and gams. Rick has asked me several times to walk around the track of the Polo Club with him. Which reminds me…I hafta check on my walking shoes. Hopefully it’s still at home.

Let’s seee…whatelse do I want to do? Ah! Save This would probably be the most challenging. I hope to put away no less than 20% of my monthly pay each month. For someone who has been working for 9 years, my saving account is pathetic.  I need to stop on my spur-of-the-moment retail indulgence. 

Speaking of retail, I’m currently having a love affair with makeup and fashion. Late bloomer, if you wish to call it as such.  Got bitten by the fashion bug when I helped Gyno during the 2006 FHM fashion show. I guesss living with him also influenced me.  I started applying makeup lately and pleased that none of the times that I did have I ever ended up looking like a clown! Still need to learn the techniques of the craft. May need to ask Gyno to teach me.

I’m going to end this post with a song. It’s Armin Van Buuren acapella mashup of two of the best songs released last year, Peter Martijn Wijnia - Not The End vs DJ Shah feat Adrina Thorpe - Who Will Find Me.  I have the video posted as well on an old entry.  That’s how much I luuuuuurv this tune!

Peter Martijn Wijnia - Not The End vs DJ Shah feat Adrina Thorpe - Who Will Find Me (Armin Van Buuren Acapella Mashup)

they should’ve been number 3

I don’t understand this years DJ list. Why is PVD number three??! They should’ve given that spot to Above and Beyond. When it comes to new releases and albums, Above and Beyond surpasses PvD handsdown. And DJ Shah ranking 50 something while David Guetta was placed at 10?!?! WTF is going on?!??!

I do agree though with Obama winning the election. I’m happy. Excited even, especially for the country that he’ll be leading. I wish we had someone like him who’d preside this god for saken country. 

settling for nothing less than butterflies

Was bloghopping when I stumbled upon this piece in kookie’s site…sorry, didn’t get her real name.  It struck a chord somehow so decided to post it. Thanks, kookie =)

In a brief conversation, a man, speaking to a woman, was out to pursue the question, “What kind of man are you looking for?”

She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asked, “Do you really want to know?”
Reluctantly, he said, “Yes” as she began to expound…

“As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can’t do for myself.

I pay my own bills.  

I take care of my household without the help of any man- or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, ‘What can you bring to the table?’”

The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.

She quickly corrected his thought and stated, “I am not referring to money… I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life.”

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain.

She said,

“I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection Mentally. I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don’t need a simple-minded man.

I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection Spiritually because I don’t need to be unequally yoked… Believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster.

I need a man who is striving for perfection Financially because I don’t need a financial… burden.

I am looking for someone who is Sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but Strong enough to keep me grounded.

I am looking for someone who I can Respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive… He just has to be worthy.

God made woman to be a helpmate for man. At this point, I can’t help a man if he can’t help himself.”

When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face, and exclaimed,  “You’re asking for a whole lot!”

To which she gracefully replied…

“Only if you think I’m not WORTH a lot.”

When it comes to relationships, maybe we’re all in a glass houses, and shouldn’t throw stones. Because you can never really know. Some people are settling down, some are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies…-Carrie, Sex and the City

yoav’s lie retold beautifully

yesterday, today, tomorrow fade away
like frozen photographs remember
forget mistakes, the ways it take, the ways it make
the moments past through every bred

i tell a beautiful lie
and i would die if you find out
i tell a beautiful lie
everytime that i did not open up my mouth

thought the same it’s a game, it’s a play, it’s a wall, it’s a shame
that we always fighting for
i don’t mean to cause no blame
don’t intent to pretend that i could never loved you more

but in the blink of the night
everything you ever knew can change
and it’s a beautiful lie
if you think everything will always stay the same…

baby, my baby
you got a secret starting to show
my baby, sweet baby
how long can you keep it? how far would you go?

you tell a beautiful lie
you tell a beautiful lie
and it’s going to
it’s going to drive you crazy

baby, my baby… starting to show
my baby, sweet baby… how far would you go, go, go?

you tell a beautiful.. yesterday, today, tomorrow fade away
like frozen photographs remember
forget
forever…

i need air

Dance dance in the morning light.
Open your darkened eyes.
Hey, hey, it’s a beautiful day.
It’ll be ok. It’ll be ok.

this literally took my breath away and managed to make my eyes well up coz it’s so fuckin’ amazing!! definitely the highlight of the 8 hour performance.

i swing both ways

there’s been a buzz regarding my sexuality lately. especially at work. fine…maybe it’s my doing since i’ve been admitting to my students that i’m bi. i don’t really see what the big fuss is about. so i like girls. fantasize about them even. heck i prefer watchin f2f porn over straight porn! i get attracted to guys to too, of course. actually, i look at guys more than girls. but for some reason, i develop crushes on girls more often.  so i guess the question is would i prefer guys or girls? it’s hard to give a direct answer to this.  being with either sex is different and uncomparible to the other but here’s the bottom line: NOTHING BEATS A REAL DICK.

pain

my tolerance to pain is usually high, regardless if it’s physical or emotional.  but what im feeling now is out of this universe…i swear if the devil was just a text away i’ll sell my soul to him right now just so i don’t have to feel my mouth throbbing in agony. 

and if that’s not enough…i have to undergo the same tormenting procedure again on saturday.  i should be ashamed of myself. i’ve always been proud of my teeth and happy that my dentist back in the big sandbox has taken really good care of it. [something that’s easy to attain when your father works for the biggest oil company in the world.] i always loved dental check-ups. or was it the flintstone erasers that my dentist would give me that i loved?  i could still recall the clean rubbery scent of those colored erasers til this very day.  no…it’s not a fruity-rubbery scent like how those flavored penis raincoats smell like.  just a light rubbery smell. come to think of it, i can’t even remember the name of my dentist. or even how he looks like aside from being caucasian, hairy [well, he has hairy forearms], blue-eyed and old.   

 my dentist now is the complete opposite. she’s  filipina, brown eyed and in her early 30s. what i really like about her is she’s really sweet and comforting, especially when she has to inject my gums with anesthesia.  but this doesn’t lessen the discomfort that i still feel when she operates on my tooth.   maybe a flintstone eraser would help.

good for me

Above & Beyond featuring Zoe Johnston - Good For Me (Original Mix)

To be with you is easy
I know you’re good for me
This feeling inside me
Oh it sends me sky high

To feel for you is easy oh baby
I know your good for me
This feeling inside me
Oh it sends me sky high

Your good for me my baby
So good for me my love
Your good for me my baby
So good for me oh love

*sigh* it’s hard not to have a love affair with this song… 

dating bugaboo

How many times do you have to go out with someone to officially say that you’re dating?  Should all the “bases” be covered to say that the interaction is more than platonic?  Does meeting his friends certify that you’re more than just a date he introduced for that week? Some are probably thinking, why not just ask the person. It beats assuming and could spare any possibility for future disappointments and even heartaches.  But where’s the fun of doing that? Isn’t that part of dating? It is…unless you’re hoping for something more.  Go with the flow and just enjoy, as Gyno would say. Easier said than done, hun. 

Here’s my song of the moment. Til There Was You by Rachael Starr (G&D Remix). 

Til there was you… I know what you’re needing, my thoughts are leading me straight into your eyes…

Im looking right at you, this feeling is all new

…I want you addicted to me…

Say NO to NO

Isn't it about time someone got negative about negativity?
Yes it is.
Look around people, the world is full of things, that according to others, should never have happened.
"Impossible."
"Improbable."
"No."
And yet "yes."
Yes, continents have been found.
Yes, men have played golf on the moon.
Yes, numerous hard to reach dreams have been turned into reality.
Yes, yes, yes.
What does it take to turn no into yes?
Curiousity. An open mind. A willngness to take risks. And the dogedness to achieve when the problem seem insoluble, when the challenge is hardest, when everyone else is shaking their heads, to say: forget it.